soas95

Here is the story of how I got my username and what it means. soas95, or S. O. A. S., stands for Shadows Of A Soul. Bear with me:    I was making my google email account forever ago and I was thinking up a cool, teen angsty username, so after much thought, I came up with Shadows Of A Soul, because it's like not focusing in the brilliant essence that the soul is, rather, it focuses on the shadows that its light causes. So it portrays me in a way, because I am always drawn to dark things because of their depth, in comparison to the rather shallow, bright, and happy things. It also shows how, while most people might just stare at the glowing s

Do you hear the unspoken words That linger between us? Like clashing chords Between sounds, there's a pause. Strapped to the core of us is love Playing the string of my soul Joys arising to skies above Into my machine, breathing motion, dull. But we are running out of time, spinning. Yes, I'm sorry, too, but despite myself, despite you, There are things worth living There are greater things to see to. Yes, I'm vulnerable, too. I strive for bliss, as do you. ---

I am not one to write about such things... I never thought they would happen to... well, me. I mean, why would they, when there are so many people on earth? Why, out of all of them, me? Anyways... It is an exquisitely funny thing. Turns your life around sideways. Builds up when you least notice it. It sparks fires that unless experienced, would otherwise sound... ...Cliche. I guess I have learned, if anything, That there are things greater than me. Not meant to be controlled. Not meant to be predictable, statistical, procedural, but... ...Organic. Lovable, and wild. Exasperatingly volatile. Seductively mortal. Consuming and scalding.